Tuesday, April 10, 2007

.....satya....

....a sanskrit term meaning 'commitment to the truth'. this means when we say something, we are sure of its truth. i've had a great, and somewhat disheartening, personal revelation that i often speak in the second person when i really mean myself. this allowed me to not take any self-responsibility and avoid some painful subjects. i realized when i was saying to those i care for 'i don't want you to feel this way', what i really meant is 'I' don't want to feel that way. why is the truth so hard to speak?
continuing with the subject of commitments, i didn't meet all of mine in the past two weeks but they have inspired some good habits. having greg around got me cooking again and back into veggie mode. he also showed me some simple meditation techniques that work well for me any time. as for the yoga and sweating, those are things i like to do all the time so putting a time frame around them made them not so fun to me anymore. i've decided to go back to simplicity and commit to being present and aware, regardless of whatever i'm doing. that and satya.

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