vivid

the heat runs through my body and instantly i'm drenched in sweat. white rage flashes in my head, i can't see, unspeakable words lie heavy on my tongue. i'm naked, vulnerable, wanting to flee but my feet are glued to the floor. suddenly, my eyes pop open and i force air into my constricted heart. i hate waking up like this....
for as long as i can remember, i've dreamt heavily, vividly, and with deep emotional resonance. my dreams seem to intensify with the moon cycle also, like when it is coming closer to fullness or i am experiencing my own cycle. its hard not to let feelings that occured in my dreams to linger throughout my day but i can't help but wonder what they mean.
perhaps my new toys, an ipod and speaker set, will offer some distaction as i go on a downloading frenzy.